The Wonders of my Majestic Life

Age: 15 almost 16

Height: 5’9

CW: 186lbs

GW: 150lbs.

Favorite Diet Food: apples and gum

Favorite Binge Food: anything salty.

Favorite exercise: zumba and running

Does anyone know?: not really.

What makes you slip up: my family and friends. people around me.

What makes you strong: my passion for wanting to be thinner. my mirror

When did it start: almost 4 years ago.

What do you see when you look in the mirror: my back fat, my thighs, my hips, my imperfections 

Is it for attention: most of the time.

Are you the fat or the thin one in your group of friends: the thicker one. I don’t like calling myself ’fat’ 

Are you depressed: about my body… of course

Ever cut yourself: no. never to that extreme

Ever been to a psychologist: no.

Lost weight: about 30 pounds

Gained weight: on and off.

Do you drink: socially

Do you smoke: No

Do you take drugs: No

Does your weight affect your mood: all the time

Do you weigh yourself daily: yes, every morning

Have you ever fasted: no. I can’t

Have you ever skipped a meal: yeah. hasn’t everyone?

Have you ever spit food out: Yes

I am—

[] Anorexic
[] EDNOS
[] Bulimic
[] Not into self diagnosis
[] living off diet pills
[X] hungry
[] drinking something
[] eating something
[] under 100 lbs
[] starving myself
[] vegan
[] vegetarian

People…

[] ask if i’m anorexic/bulimic
[X] call me fat
[X] say i’m skinny
[X] say i’m ugly
[X] talk about me behind my back
[X] force me to eat
[X] say i eat too much
[] wish I’d eat more
[] don’t know i’m anorexic/bulimic
[] have tried to stop me

I wish…

[X] I was thin
[X] i had a better body
[X] i didn’t have to eat
[X] i could control myself
[X] i could avoid food
[] i could hide what i am
[X] i was prettier
[X] i could disappear

I love…

[] being hungry
[X] seeing a difference
[] shaking
[] being weak
[X] losing weight
[] being anorexic/bulimic
[X] green tea
[] diet pills
[X] being able to turn down food (snacks)
[X] feeling good about myself

Appearances…

[] I’m shorter than 5’4 
[X] think i’m ugly
[] have self made scars
[] have a tattoo
[] wear glasses
[X] been told i’m pretty by a stranger
[] have more than 2 piercings
[] have piercings besides my ears
[X] have freckles (faint ones)
[] am petite

I hate…

[X] when people stare
[X] being asked questions
[X] having to eat
[X] being single
[] wearing short skirts
[X] being fat
[X] looking ugly
[XXXX] feeling this way
[] fat people

I need…

[X] people to stay out of my business
[X] more friends
[] someone to know
[X] less food
[X] more water
[] gym membership
[X] to lose 30 lbs
[X] to lose 20 lbs
[X] to lose 10 lbs
[X] to lose 5 lbs